Wednesday, July 2, 2008

One more thing...

So, this post is to commit myself to QUIT BEING ADDICTED TO PERFECTION!!!  I have been this way for really as long as I can remember (I recall combing my carpet at one point as a child so it would all GO IN THE SAME DIRECTION!) And it's killin' me, Smalls! (Semi-Sandlot movie quote, for those of you who don't know..yeesh!)  The past couple weeks I have really been TRYING to focus on letting go of the small things.  I have a very hard time with that.  Dishes in the sink?  Gotta get'em done!  Floor needs vacuumed..step right to it! Then, 11:30 last night, as I'm lying in bed, exhausted from 3 hellacious shifts at work..shoulda' been sleeping..but NO!  Full on anxiety hits!  Oh my gosh!  I have 3 baskets of laundry, the dog has spread her fur all over our house, the sink is full, I need to sweep, I haven't made anything more nutritious than Mac n' Cheese...AUGHHH!!!  I think I actually slapped my face and said 'snap out of it!'  And I totally mean to do just that!!  This is something that has the potential to make me miserable if I don't just STOP IT!  I have SO much to be thankful for in my life and I'd better just enjoy it and quit freaking out about everything that just doesn't matter :)  So, if any of you catch me combing carpet, would you please smack me in the back of the head? Thanks :)

6 comments:

Kakes said...

Normally I am so lazy that things like chores don't bug me when I am falling to sleep. But last night, I guess I was just like you, I layed there wide eyed and thought about all the things I had to do, and started thinking way too much. Heck I was thinking of future vacations I wanted to go on, and how much would I need to start saving right now to get that done, and blah blah blah! It certainly is hard to snap out of it. Either way, I hope you were finally able to go to sleep and get a good night's rest. :)

Mandy said...

haha... I'm totally like that too. Although not as bad as a few years ago. You know how refreshing it is to not give a damn?? VERY!! I'm so excited to have coffee with you on friday! YAY!

Jen said...

You crack me up. I'm glad to see someone else has OCD as well. Trever won't even vacuum the floor anymore because I get so upset when the lines don't match up. I must say that having a kid really teaches you a lot about letting go of little things--maybe you should try that and see how that works :) :) :)

Wendy Anderson said...

Meg you are so funny I honestly wish I was more like you cause I am so not that way and I hate having a dirty house but it is so hard for me to keep it clean I dont know why!! So maybe you could give me alittle of that OCD and then we can both even out a little bit ha ha ha!!

Cheryl said...

You make me laugh megs:) I totally know what you mean about sweatin the small stuff, cus I've got issues with that too and it has to be done right then or I go crazy! I guess we just got to remember how great our lives are and that getting worked up over something so small and dumb is just not worth the stress to us or our families:) I love ya!! we need to get together again for girls night!!

Misty said...

I'm so excited for you to have kids cuz it will snap you right out of the being a perfectionist. You have to learn to let go of the small things. Like for example, my house has been a huge mess the whole day because Tanner drags out every toy he owns and plays with them all day. No sense in putting them away until he's asleep. Hey, at least he'll play with toys, that's how I have to look at it.