Ramblings of a mad woman

OK, so I'm going to try my hand at this blog thing...everyone else seems to have one & they are so entertaining to read...especially when I'm working my night shifts & need to stay awake. I tend to ramble...bear with me! Honestly, I'll be flattered if even one other person reads this!

So, here I am, working a night shift (my last one this week, thank GOODNESS!) reading everyone's blogs...I got started on this when I googled my friend, Amber, who I haven't talked to in ages (since she did my wedding pics, actually) and found HER blog...and surprise! She has a cute little baby girl now...I remember my mom mentioning she was pregnant...THEN I remember that another girl I went to highschool with, Kateka, who I recently exchanged a couple emails w/, has a blog too...so I hightaled it over to her site. Now she has got some funny stuff on hers..she always was so much fun to talk to...anywho, I digress...along w/ her hilarious stories, she's got links to other people's blogs..people I went to school w/...I start looking at their blogs....everyone has kids! Cute little midgets! I have NEVER been baby hungry..not in all my years of big-sistering/cousin-ing/aunting/babysitting etc...I look at them, hold them, I think they're cute, & yes, I want one or two of my own eventually. But looking at all these people, my age, w/ their adorable families..well, it really starts making me want my own little bundle of joy. I have a couple other things I'd like to get checked off my list, important things, before I (we, actually...can't leave my hubby out of this!) embark on this journey..but MAN I feel like I'm behind! Not that there's really a time line for these things.....

ANYWHO, do you ever have those moments when you feel so disconnected from REAL life? I usually feel that way after I get done w/ my night shifts...I get so thoughtful (ok, tired, really) when I work nights...and little things become big issues...I essentially make mountains out of molehills...haha. I just get so dang emotional..does anyone else have these moments? Of course they do....For example: I was determined to make my hubby a yummy dinner tonight before I left for work. He is always making me gourmet meals & quite frankly, it makes me feel guilty because I'm the one who's supposed to have the mad kitchen skills! So I tried my hand at these asparagus/chicken/black bean enchiladas (they are supposed to be aphrodisiacs ;)..well it was going quite well until I tried to roll the tortillas. They tore. And I was pissed. In fact, I had to stop myself from chucking the glass pan I was putting the enchiladas in accross the kitchen! It was my own little adult version of a temper tantrum! And it was all because I was tired...now someone out there PLEASE tell me I am not the only person who regresses when they're tired...because sometimes I feel like I live in a world of perfect people who are always patient & thoughtful & say intelligent things. Jeff is always so patient w/ me when I'm moody, and I feel like I'm constantly apologizing for my outbursts :) And so, on that note, I really can't torture whoever is crazy enough to read this w/ anymore of my insane ramblings :)